coinings I and II

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I

 

it doesn’t exist

i would have to make it

but i already know

exactly how it would sound

 

it would have to be guttural

no shortage of x’s and k’s

throw in a few gh’s for good measure

(not whiny like nigh but vicious like rough or ugh)

as few vowels as possible

(for they only sustain

and i want staccato)

seven letters max, six or less preferably

one syllable, necessarily

a good sturdy onomatopoeia would work

like CRACK

 

it would have to be

a hard word

an unrelenting

brutal

visceral

facepunch word

with abject finality

like CRUNCH

 

because if i use this word

to scream out how i feel

i would want everyone to hear it

but only once

and then for it

to be

over

as quickly as possible

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II

 

(i think after that

i’d like to try

)just once have the chance(

to create

some singy songful word

a ringy longful word

with plenty of vowels in it)

 

(and shout it

in an empty waiting cavern

or to a patient black sky

that had been starving

a long time

for such a word

and when at last it heard it

it would joyfully say it back to me

whispering echoes

while i slept)

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